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Monday, February 1, 2010

My MBA is coming to an end...soon I will be back home...

Last two years taught me so much about life..i hav had my ups and downs..

But i never thought this is how things going to turn out for me at IIMs..

I screwed up my personal life biggg time...I gav eup everything for wrong people...

made frens with people who dunt care...but i also managed to find few nice people..

i still managed to find a nice job and yeah i did learn my lesson...

i cant jus trust ppl like dat...world s not dat nice afterall...i guess i expect a lot from ppl...and also i m jus too insecure about ppl in my life...

dunno where all dis came from ..i wasnt liek dis before...i was happy and free,....

anyways...i m leavin dis place...for a new destination , new ppl and new life...

this place gave me a lot...taught me a lot...and it was indeed a dream life...

but guess its time to move on....

dunno wat its gonna be like in future...but i m sure god has smthin good in store for me...i think i hav had my share of lows now...cant go lower den dis,...!!!

and yeah i guess i should give up on relationships...smtimes they r nt jus meant to work no matter wat u do...may be dats life...may be i should learn to move on soon to be happy in life...

may be....

posted by Y.M. @ 1:50 PM 2 comments

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Giving My All

Life has certainly changed in last two years.

But this is not about the change. Its yet again about the thing that hurt me the most..giving my all to someone who doesnt care...

well..the worst part is I cant leave him.. No I dunt understand why i cant leave him...he treats me badly..he s rude to me...he s selfish..and i come like last on his priority list...

but still...still...i just cant walk away from him..why am i still here?why cant i leave a person who makes me cry evday..?why cant i leave a person who will just watch me cry and wont even react?why cant i leave a person for whom i mean nothing?

I have given him my all....i thought may be a lot of love will change him one day...i thought he will love me back the same way as i do one day....may be things will after all be right between us one day...

but the day hasnt come....and here i am sitting again...cryin...miserable...fighting the pain...all alone...and i still doesnt have the courage to leave him...wat s stoppin me?wat m i scared of..?

i am not sure...i jus know i am in a lot of pain and i cant do anythin about it...it hurts...it hurts like crazy...doc told me recently this pain is going to make things worse for me soon...i know i can be in a deep shit if i dunt get out of my depression soon....i know the only way out of this pain is to move out of this relationship..but i just cant...i dunt have the strength..may be i love him way too much ....wat is this?is this love?is this really love??....

posted by Y.M. @ 4:43 PM 2 comments

Friday, September 18, 2009

I am yet again running after wrong things in life...wrong people...wrong expectations.

when did all dis start? It was all fine..I learnt not to expect too much from anyone during graduation

Then I came here...made some awesome set of friends...got really carried away...

I made dose friends my life...gave them more importance than myself...

well....it was all fine till the day I got into shit and needed them..I looked back and no one was there..

where did i go wrong??I always did the right thing...I always had the good intentions..

but may right thing wasnt that right after all..

why do i still expect them to change?why am i still running for support...?when will i really learn?

when will i really grow up???

posted by Y.M. @ 8:19 PM 4 comments

Friday, May 22, 2009

"Heyy!!"
"ahem...heyy...so why did u call?"
"huh?...cant i call u ..?btw i jus called to tell u that I am leaving now.."
"oh...right..okay..."
"umm...u have nothing else to say?"
"no..why...u want to leave , u can leave...i am no one to stop you rfom doing anything.."
"yeah right...u r no one...chal take care den..bye"
"yeah bye"
*heart break*
why is it so difficult to move on?even when you know you are holding on to nothing. even when you know it is going to take you no where...even when you know there is no other alternative then moving on..life is tough...

posted by Y.M. @ 10:21 PM 4 comments

Sunday, March 22, 2009

time to change

Life is soon going to change. I am at the crossroads again..new place ..new people..new experience..

But I am still not able to get over my previous experience. I ruined evrything that was nice in my life..and also ruined the time I have always waited for..

I need just one chance to correct it all...I am not quite sure how I will do it , but I wanna do it.. Tomm results going to be out and life is going to go either ways...for good or worse...I am not sure ..but it is surely going to change a lot of things..

But I am not sure what exactly to learn from my past exp..was it wrong to have good intentions for evone?was it wrong to be frens with people who were nice to u?was it wrong to trust people?was it wrong to expect world ard me to be nice?was it wrong to expect ur own frens to be nice?
so should i be mean nice and always suspicious?should i be a loner?should i jus stop expectin nice ppl in my life?

I am not sure..I dunt know what I am goin to change about myself in my new life, but I gotta do smthing..Honestly speakin , I love being the way I am ..I love being naive...I love to feel pure hearts around me...I really dunt wanna change :-( but I will have to chnage...I cant let people hurt me again..

This is not wat I expected life to be like wen I grow up...:-(

posted by Y.M. @ 9:36 AM 2 comments

Thursday, March 12, 2009

"Did it mean anything to you?"
"Yes..It did..I like you, but I am not sure. I find you cute. But I like her as well. I am confused. You are my best friend and even she is such a good friend. I cant ditch her. I am not sure what to do."
"Listen ...lets just forget it. You dont love me. And thats all I care about. But you should have thought at least once before kissing me. It was my first kiss. It meant so much to me..Anyway, We will still be friends. I love you a lot and I am not going to spoil our friendship cuz you did something stupid."
"Hey ..stop..I am sorry..I know I was stupid..............hey dunt go.."
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"You fine na...?"
"of course..i am fine...i am over all that...dunt worry.."
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"I am not fine. I hate this..I hate the fact that I kissed when I dunt even love you. I hate the fact that you dunt love me. I hate the fact that my first kiss was not any love story .. I hate the fact that you like someone else. I hate the fact that my parenst trust me so much. I hate the fact that its going to kill them. I hate the fact that I dunt feel pure anymore...I hate myself..."

posted by Y.M. @ 11:24 AM 2 comments

Thursday, January 1, 2009

I wish

Last year was very eventful.I met you.. I went to a new place and I met you. There was nothing special about you.. You were just a plain looking guy. But your eyes said something to me.I swear I felt it. I swear I stopped breathing evtime I saw you. I was so sure about you that I told evone abt u. I was so sure about you that I took you as my destiny. Though I hated evtime you ignored me .. I hated evtime I saw you wid smone else. I hated the fact that you dint love me the way I do. But I was so sure that you are the one that I ignored evthing. I knew I m in love. I loved you . I swear I did. I am not sure why. I am not sure how. I just know evtime I saw you , I felt this connection. I nvr cared about your short height , bald spots , arrogant attitude , stupid logic and unreasonable obsession wid urself. I knew it doesnt matter. I knew I dunt care. I knew I loved you. I never felt this way for anyone. And may be thats why I dint know wat to do. May be I screwed up big time. may be I did manage to pisss you off. But I was so obsessed with the fact that I am in love with you , I never thought abt it. But now I know you dunt love me. I know you nvr felt the way I did. I know you never looked at me the way I did. But why is it still so hard for me to accept that . I know I have to move on. I know we are nt meant for each other .

Mya be it was all in my head. May be it was a dream . May be it wasnt love. May be I hav lost myself. May be you werent the one.

Whatever it was, I know you will always be special to me. I wish I could say this to you. I wish I could tell you what you mean to me. I wish you were my destiny.

So here I kiss you good bye. My sweet love ...Its all over now. It was a dream and its over now.

I wish I find myself soon...

posted by Y.M. @ 1:14 PM 4 comments

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